Will and always will

If only I were to get a chance
A chance to be with u, even for a second
To share the moments with u
You brought new meaning to
My bruised and torn heart

Noble attempts got me nowhere
But still I say and sing the same words
Those of my everlasting love
If I were to be with u
To live a life of love, where free life prevails

if i were to hold you one more time
may my heart explode if i were to forget you
I may lie,and cheat but shall never forget
you make up my life,without you there is none
there is no life, you are my life
will and always will
i will always love thee



Jerry Setati Masenya
Copyright ©2004 Jerry Setati Masenya

Damien & Stephen Marley

MTV Caribbean MTV Networks is set to launch a Caribbean music and culture cable network that will be broadcast across the region, as well as North America in 2006. It has been announced that the program will broadcast original programming, movies, specials, and series programs. {Damaien and Stephen Marley are 2 of Bob Marley's sons}

Sean Paul is back with a vengeance!

The track playing is the New Sean Paul joint! Its called "We be Burnin'". Its blowin' up all over the country. He is 'My King of Dancehall'! Catch the making of the new video and the premiere on BET's 'Access Granted' on August 17th!

Steady Pimpin'

Since my recent Rough N' Sexy Rampage with Ice Cold, my cell has been blowing up with texts and voice messages from him. Roses are being sent to my job and home as well. Has this thug gone soft? As I expected...he's pussy whipped! He had 4gotton how good it felt to be with a real woman. All those skanks and hoes that he was with couldn't accomplish what I did in 1 night of ecstacy. I will admit that it took me by surprise and gave me that much needed action that I had been craving. The only downside to this is that I think he thinks we're back 2gether! Not at all the case. He is one of the sexiest beings I know but he's also proven himself unworthy of my love. I can't risk getting involved with him again. It'll be rough (mostly cause I'll be tempted to fuck him again) but i have 2 express this 2 him b4 its 2 late. Meanwhile, Entice sends me a text telling me he'll be back in town soon...

Why women cry

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:

"When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,

yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

Ya'll know I'm a Trooper!

Ice cold or Entice? Tough decision. Both Damn Sexy with assets. But lucky 4 me this time, the situation unraveled itself. Entice headed back 2 FAMU for summer courses and i thought that was it. Turns out one of Ice Cold's other homeboys say the PDA between Entice & I. FUCK! No biggie, no biggie. I'm gangsta. I can do this. Ice Cold is giving me an earful when he shows up at my apartment unannounced. I was coming back from Brewsters with my double scoop of Oreo and this fool wants 2 try me in my own complex! He was yelling all kinds of nasty words like 'whore' 'tramp' 'slut'. My neighbors started to peak out front doors and windows. Who the hell does he think he is? He can't make an ass out of me? Him shouting makes him look crazy. The entire time, I kept a straight face. I wasn't an idiot. I knew that he knew but i didn't know how he found out. Nor did it matter. Hell, I think I even began 2 eat my ice cream! Tha fact remained that he was trying to create a scene to embarress me, and it didn't work. He continued to yell and attempt 2 aggrivate me as he followed me to my door. As I tried to open my front door, he grabbed me. Bad decision. I do not allow anyone to man-handle me and that was not about 2 change! Get your hands off of me!(being the first words I spoke 2 him during the whole ordeal). Yea he's a big dude but that gives him no right to put his hands on me. Can you imagine? Little 5'4 me and 6'1 him face 2 face. He loosens his grip and says "So what do u have 2 say 4 yourself?" "Look, Entice is my friend 2. I didn't know I needed your permission 2 hang out with him. Nothing happened. We're just friends! I guess I struck a nerve b/c next thing I know he picks me up by the arms and slams me against the wall next 2 my door. I dropped my ice cream! That's 4.40 down the crapper. I'm thinkin 'oh shit, he's gonna kill me! He then proceeds to plant the most powerful, rage centered kiss on me. He never kissed me like this. It was like my lips were permanently attached to his somehow. I loved being pulled and tugged on. I was in such a trance that I don't remember how we got into my bedroom. I can remember reaching the highest levels of raw passion. His lips kissed every inch of my body. And just when I thought it couldn't get any better he had 1 last surprise. He pulled out my Ice cream cup from under the bed. When the heck did he pick that up? I thought I dropped it! He started to pour it over my navel and proceeded ‘South’ of the border.

The title speaks 4 itself

Needless 2 say, I let the whole Dashaun shit go. He was a great guy but I valued my friendship more. The Dashaun situation seems like cupcakes compared 2 what I'm in the middle of now! Like I've said b4, Ice Cold n I have tried 2 salvage something 2gether that resembles a friendship. True, a part of me wants 2 be with him but history does repeat itself. N E Wayz, Ice Cold's best friend Entice has been keepin in contact with me. He is a really wonderful guy. He calls and texts me 2 make sure I'm alright and does everything else i wish Ice Cold would. For months I've been getting vibes from him that he's into me. Yesterday confirmed my suspicions. He had tickets to the theatre and asked me to accompany him. I agreed thinking nothing behind it. He shows up as sharp as a blade. Damn this boy can dress! We go 2 the show and it was ok. I'm not big on plays but it was free :) After the show, he initially wanted 2 go to his apartment. {PAUSE} I know exactly where this is going. This is clearly a playa move 2 get some Ass. He's smelling fine, looking good, money is no object-very tempting offer. But only a bigger playa can get out of this. [Resume] I then suggest we go 2 the mall to c what's on sale @ my favorite shops. I went earlier in the day but he didn't need 2 know all of that info.I needed anything 2 deflect his obvious attration 2 me. Plus I had some stuff on layaway. We end up @ Wet Seal. I picked out some stuff that looked cute on the racks but not on me. As I tried on stuff, he would peak back and forth 2 c what it looked like. I could tell he enjoyed watching how the clothes hugged all of my curves. As we left, he complimented me on my X-large 'rack' and huge 'behind'. I thanked him but laughed it off in a joking manner so he wouldn't c me blush. Then it was time 4 us 2 part ways. He put his arm around my waist and pulled me close. And right b4 he planted 1 on me, I turned 4 him 2 kiss my cheek. I couldn't kiss him. His best friend is my Ex. How would I b able 2 live with myself? That is low beyond low. He's sexy as hell, smart, his life is on track, and is so charming. But he's also Ice Cold's best friend. Ice Cold has some great qualities 2. Not 2 mention I was emotionally involved with him as well. I refuse 2 b the woman 2 come between 2 friends. What type of person does that? My homegirl Max & I are suppost 2 meet up with them 2nite. And the saga continues...

One Flaw In Women

By the time the Lord made woman,

He was into his sixth day of working overtime.

An angel appeared and said,

"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?

She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,

have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable

and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,

have a lap that can hold four children at one time,

have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart

-and she will do everything

with only two hands."


The angel was astounded at the requirements.

"Only two hands!? No way!

And that's just on the standard model?

That's too much work for one day.

Wait until tomorrow to finish."


But I won't," the Lord protested.

"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.

She already heals herself when she is sick

AND can work 18 hour days."


The angel moved closer and touched the woman.

"But you have made her so soft, Lord."


"She is soft," the Lord agreed,

"but I have also made her tough.

You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."


"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.


The Lord replied,

"Not only will she be able to think,

she will be able to reason and negotiate."


The angel then noticed something,

and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.

"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.

I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."


"That's not a leak,"

the Lord corrected,

"that's a tear!"

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.


The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,

her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,

her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

The angel was impressed.

"You are a genius, Lord.

You thought of everything!

Woman is truly amazing."


And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men.

They bear hardships and they carry burdens,

but they hold happiness,

love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy

and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.

They stand up to injustice.

They don't take "no" for an answer

when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel

and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about

a birth or a wedding.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member,

yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss

can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you

to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.

They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideals.

They give moral support to their family and friends.

Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,

IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.